musings…life

its amazing sometimes how one can be continually growing and not realise it. it has been a rollercoaster month. full of bad stuff..good ones too..great actually. im slowly coming out of my shell and being free and being me. sometimes i wonder what people think of me but most of the time i dont really care. im learning everyday to deal with new people i meet, learn the language and listen as much as i can, learn to deal with a wide range of feelings that come like waves…and yet also like whispered breeze sometimes. i get my strength from the weirdest places and people. i see beauty in things and people that others seem to not see..maybe its just the way i see things…people…life. some say i am like a cloud..having a natural high. i think i feel this high cos im riding on love again. its so true that i am in love with love and i need that encompassing freedom..its wild yet safe. i feel priviledged to be a part of a group of people who seem to want to do a whole lot of good for mankind and spiritually i am gaining in strength..and yet sometimes i think its simply a sharing of burdens. what is clear though i feel more..from others and for others and sometimes it gets too much and i want to hide where i cnt. sometimes the one i love the most hurt me the most but i am learning to go with the flow with that too and to understand and accept where his feelings and words are coming from. life…how amazing. i meet people with such strength yet such great frailty here. wonderful lighted beings who know where their core is yet still feel the need to free themselves with overindulgences..to let go of life’s worries and tiredness and pain. but then,what is overindulgence anyway. i never judge nor say anything i have no right to pry or advise but i pray they really do know their limits and is protected by god and the universe…so very much like children…as we all are…amazing.

~ by azuluna on June 27, 2008.